It's an inevitable part of the grieving process...

   "The emo phase." Broken hearts dont happen often, but "the emo phase" does. Everyone gets into those moods where you just want to be alone, listen to music, and do something non- productive. 

   You know it doesn't help it when people tell you to "Get over it." How is telling someone to "GET OVER IT," going to help them in anyway.. I'm dealing with it. I'm allowed one night of sadness if I want. 

    In all honesty, emo night never help. They actually tend to make things worse, becuase then you start to over analyze things. Oh my, and the absolute worst thing, WORST thing, is when you turn on some music and put it on randomize (that devilish mode, that knows just how to hit you when your down), you always end up listening to every sad song, or any song that reminds you of that one person, that your trying to forget about.. 

    I'm already feeling a bit better, but still there's this part inside me that just wants to drive over to his house and cal him to come outside, run up to him, jump on him, and kiss him, haha.

"I love him, but everyday I'm learning all my life, I've only been pretending. Without me his world would go on turning, a world that's full of happiness that i have never known."

"Beauty queen of only eighteen, she had some trouble with herself, he was always there to help her, she always belonged to someone else...It's not always rainbows and butterflies, it's compromise that moves us along. My heart is full and my doors always open, you can come by anytime you want."

"Cause baby I'm not alright when you go, I'm not fine. Please be all mine. I never want you to go, becuase I am all yours so please be all mine."

"Don't It always seem to go, that you don't know what you've got till' it's gone.."

"That's where I want to be..to be."